Right now, I’m really happy, so I thought it might be a good idea to write a blog post. I often revisit my old writings to see how my perspective has changed during key moments in my life. It’s nice to have a medium where you can leave your footprints. As humans, we’re constantly morphing into different personalities. I’m not the same person I was 10 years ago. Today, I’m in a much better place, both physically and emotionally. What’s funny, though, is that over the past few months I’ve been trying to bring back some parts of my identity that I lost along the way.
The reason for my happiness is simple. Of course, it’s not just one thing - I believe it’s partly the result of a compounding effect from my daily habits. But those habits alone only set the baseline for my mood. The real breakthrough came from finally finishing a video of my trip to Japan. My magnum opus. A birthday gift from me to myself, for a very special occasion - a round anniversary. I’ve just turned thirty, and sometimes it feels like life is only just beginning.
I struggled a lot before I could call it done. First, I had to learn new software, DaVinci Resolve, which was already a challenge. Then I had to learn more about storytelling. After that, I had to dig deep into myself to bring out a story worth telling. I even had to learn to like my own voice, listening to it on repeat and making endless improvements. In short, I had to leave my comfort zone and spend countless hours working on something that, in the end, will mostly be seen only by my close friends and family.
But through this little adventure, I learned a lot about myself. I made peace with myself. I let go of perfectionism. I let go of the voice telling me I was making a fool of myself. Every step of the way, that voice whispered that I couldn’t possibly create something others would like. Many times I heard it say I wasn’t good enough - that I lacked the experience and expertise to talk about big things. But the final outcome is proof that I am capable of great work. That if I push past the part of my personality that tries to keep me small, I can achieve something meaningful. Somewhere along the path into adulthood, I forgot that I am where I am today thanks to my younger self - the one who dreamed big. Recently, it feels like I’m starting to reconnect with that younger me. It feels good. Like I once left home, but through hard work, I’ve found the path back.
What’s interesting is that when I first finished the video, I didn’t feel much of anything. Maybe just a sense of relief that it was finally done. But later that day, I sent the link to my close friends and family. Their feedback was amazing. They told me they felt the same emotions I felt while creating it. That’s when my excitement went through the roof. It’s funny how an audience of just 20 people can make such a difference to the author. I truly appreciate having so many wonderful people in my life who value my work. I don’t need anything more.
Here’s the link to the video. It’s in Polish, and I couldn’t bring myself to make English subtitles, so if you don’t know Polish - well, sorry, haha! I believe my next projects will be more international-friendly. To whoever reads this - have a great day! Cheers!