Whenever I'm sad and sit down to write something, my head is usually full of bad thoughts that want to be written down. Sometimes that's helpful, because I can analyse what's been going wrong lately, and come up with some sort of fix. And today, my solution to this situation is to change the mood of what I want to write. Bad things tend to escalate into something bigger, and then you end up thinking about something, that makes you sad even more. This time, I didn't allow myself to sabotage myself. So here is some of the good stuff that I can think of right now.
First of all, let me start with what I should appreciate more - I finally launched my new website ( old one ) that I have been working on for the last few months. I'm really proud of it, because I put a lot of work into all aspects of it. I always wanted to learn Figma, so everything started with me creating a design system, individual components and the most important page views. Then I changed the framework from Gatsby to NextJS. The whole idea came about because I wanted to use Contentful for the ease of posting, and wanted to get rid of the really awful experience of deploying via the Gatsby environment. Don't get me wrong, I loved every second of working with my old framework. But time passed, and for now, the whole experience of maintaining the site is much better on NextJS. Since I'm going to write a more coherent blog post about my new site, I'll shut up about it for now. So, yeah - Michał, great work!!!!!!!!!! I can't reckon how many times I've been proud of myself while tackling something really challenging, during the process of implementing new designs.
A few weeks ago, I had a little conflict with my best friend, about something really trivial. He is known for being very stubborn, but I was so frustrated, that I told him how I felt. I never really do that, because most of the time, it doesn't make sense for me to take sides - in the end, everyone gets hurt. And if it's something small and doesn't cost anything, it's much easier to just agree with someone and forget about it forever.
So I spent half the night, when I couldn't sleep, and all the next day, thinking about the whole situation. It was so obvious to me that I was right. I was really frustrated at him for not agreeing with me, but also at myself for allowing such a conflict to happen in the first place. And then it clicked. I went straight into his DMs and apologised. I explained myself, told him that I understood where his frustration was coming from, and that I didn't want such a trivial thing to affect our friendship. Conflict averted! I have to add, that I was only able to come up with such a clever idea, because I was watching Ted Lasso at the time. He has this mantra: "You know who the happiest animal in the world is? A goldfish. Why? It's got a 10-second memory. I never imagined that being a goldfish could be so helpful. In fact, when I think about it, I forget to be a goldfish all the time - like right now, writing this stuff down. What was I sad about? I can't remember.
Writing is such a pleasure! I feel better now. There's no better cure for sadness than retrospection. Thank you, dear reader, I really appreciate you taking the time to read all this. Have a great day, I wish you all the best!